Looking back to my January posts and remembering everything that happened between then and now is hard. January 11 I found out I was pregnant with my second. I was so excited we had tried for this for an entire year! We kicked into high gear with the savings and banked as much as we could, I am self employed there for wouldn't qualify for any type of leave. Regardless we were so happy and so excited. Everything was going great I had some sickness but it was okay. Fast forward to March, I started experiencing some complications. Lots of visits to the doctor, blood work, ultrasounds and tests and we found out baby had stopped growing and I was in the beginning stages of a miscarriage. I was devastated, my daughter was devastated. Fast forward to now April 15, I'm still very sad and hurt. Every time I look at my savings and see the money had I saved for baby time it's like a slap in the face. We are continuing to try for another, continuing to save where we can. I hope to be more active around here, more accountable and more money savvy. I'm also hoping for a miracle that we get pregnant again before the year with a healthy pregnancy.
How things change.
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Oh, dear friend. I know the pain that you feel. Five years ago was my last miscarriage and it ripped my heart out. The baby had been fine at 14 weeks with a heart beat and then six weeks later, we found out that the baby died. So awful. And people mean well, and say kind things, and send cards and flowers, and bring meals. But really that dull aching is always there. Sometimes more acute than others. I hope that you have a friend to talk to, or even attend a hospital's support group. A place and time to devote to your grief may be a gift that you give to yourself. For me it is especially difficult when I see my friends' children who are the same age of my youngest (and lost) child. I will pray for you that you are well and that you have a bright future.
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I lost a baby between my daughter and son. It is a sad event.
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